Charles, my Pride and Joy, in FL at Sunrise

Charles, my Pride and Joy, in FL at Sunrise

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Got Snow!

I awoke today to the sounds of Charles coming in. He was on his way to work. He happily told me it was snowing. I love snow. Mostly we get a mixture of ice and snow in this part of Missouri. I knew it should be snowing this morning….I got up to go see. Yipeee, soft white fluffy stuff. No ice! There are small and big flakes. When I took the pic, the sky was still a overcast. So, I knew more was coming. We have about 4 or 5 inches right now. I would like more. We shall see what happens.

I was going to go to the gym to walk today. Instead I decided my exercise would be clearing snow. I used to be able to do the whole driveway at once. Today, I would do a few repeat. I had done the walkway and top of my driveway when the Century 21 guy came by doing the road. He was very nice and offered to help me out. This is not part of my rental contract. Three swipes and done! Thanks anonymous snow plow dude...I was about "done" anyway.

There is a small slope behind my place. When we first moved here in winter of 2000, I bought Charles a snowboard for Christmas. He liked it at first but I guess the novelty wore off. I used it more than he did. We had lots of snow that year. I still have the snowboard. It is looking promising for “snowboard” weather. I think this will be my challenge for tomorrow. I don’t do inclines well at all….at least not on the way up :)

I know some people have been wondering why I went on a posting spree and then stopped suddenly. Well, I have had a challenging time at work and have been very fatigued. It isn’t the physical stuff. It is the office politics. I just don’t get it!

So, what have I been doing? I have been working on myself. Meditating….Growing.

Trying to learn why this new challenge is occurring. Trying to learn not to be angry.

Understanding that others may embrace their negative feelings….and I have the right to not be caught in that loop.

Learning that some people will present as friends……and aren’t.

Knowing that what is important is not how others treat you but how you treat others….how you think…..and what you do.

Ok, that is all of philosophical ali today. Take care.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I Believe

Good news…I think the sinus infection has cleared. That just leaves the pain from the diaphragm EMG to deal with. On Friday, I had doc listen to my chest and she heard a rub. A pleural friction rub is a scraping sound that is heard over inflamed pleura (lining of the lung/chest cavity). Ouch. So, we decided I needed anti-inflammatory medication. This is a med that causes me to have increased edema pretty quickly. So…I get to take more Lasix (a diuretic). My body sure does respond negatively to so many things nowadays. Oh well…life goes on.

Are you wondering about the title of this post yet??? This morning I received an email from a phriend that shared what I will post below. It is so timely for things that are occurring in my life right now. It will be posted on my wall at work tomorrow. I hope it will remind me to keep a positive attitude. I hope you enjoy reading it also.

A birth certificate shows that we were born;
a death certificate shows that we died;
and pictures show that we lived!

Have a seat . Relax. And read this slowly..

I believe - That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe - That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe - That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe - That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I believe - That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe - That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe - That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe - That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I believe - That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe - That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe - That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe - That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe - That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe - That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe - That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe - That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe - That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe - That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe - Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe - That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe - That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I believe - That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe - That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I believe - That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in. I just did. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

Take care, ali

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

What is an EMG?

I was reminded in an email that I use abbreviations that many people may not know. So I decided to share this with everybody.....also needed to give a report on how it went.

An EMG is an electromyogram. I also had a NCS (Nerve conduction study). The reason I had them is that I desat, have low oxygen level, more than the doctor believes can be accounted for by my PH (Pulmonary Hypertension). So, she really wanted me to have a diaphragm EMG and NCS. The EMG tests the muscular function for weakness or inappropriate movement. The nerve conduction study tested the phrenic nerves communication with the diaphragm.

They did the NCS first by placing a device that delivers the Ć«lectrical impulse to the phrenic nerves on both sides of the neck. That doc could have had an alternate career as a taser carrying policeman! He is good at his job. The EMG came next. It is done with long acupuncture like needles. They were inserted between ribs into 2 spots in the diaphragm on each side of the chest. I did not expect it to hurt as much as it did - the right side much more than the left. Everything was normal and I am glad it is over!!

So, no more answers than when I started needing the oxygen. Oh well. I'll live with the hose in my nose. OK, time for more pain pills and bed. Good Night.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Cowboy Cookies

OK, folks. This is what I also accomplished this weekend. The recipe was my Grandmother's. My brother Ross made them for Christmas this year. I had forgotten how sinfully good they are. My mother gave him the recipe. So, I got the recipe from him. Thanks Mom! (how do they look?)

I rarely fix or eat anything like these cookies anymore. They are full of sugar. They also have oats, pecans and chocolate chips. They are Wonderful!!

There are plenty for dig in. I won't tell:)


I have really been lacking motivation recently. By the end of the work week, I just do not want to do much. I just finished my 2nd back to back course of antibiotic for my sinus infection. I have had this most of the time since Christmas. Ugh! It sure does a number on the energy level.

This weekend I have accomplished a few things. I am still sorting thru stuff to get rid of and pitched some stuff. Other stuff is in a sell and a giveaway pill. Everything takes longer to accomplish since I developed PH. So, I am trying to prepare for the time when Charles is no longer at home. I am in no hurry for him to go. I like having him here. Well, he is still kinda here… maybe a third of the time. More than many parents get with their 20 year olds. So, I am grateful.

Tomorrow I go back to St Louis for another EMG. This one is on the diaphragm. Hmmm, sounds like fun, eh?! I would have preferred to have it done on a Friday in case I am wiped out by it. However, they said it is done by one physician on Mondays. OK, I think I have a few questions before they go zapping me again. I’ll fill you in on how it goes.